A Different Turn
Lately, I’ve been in quite the predicament. I feel like I’m going through this bizarre “quarter-life” crisis. (If you don’t believe me, look it up. Apparently, it’s actually a thing.)
Essentially, it’s something that people in their mid-twenties tend to go through. It’s this feeling of being older even though we’re not old. It’s the time in our lives where most question who they are, who they want to be, and what life goals they have. Over the last decade, I’ve thoughtfully considered who I wanted to be and what I wanted out of life. And by the grace of God, I’ve achieved nearly everything I thought I wanted to achieve by now and even more.
Ephesians 3:20 says, “Now all glory to God, who is able, through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.”
Reader, I’m living proof of this verse. As a teen, I had no idea what I wanted to do as a career or even where I’d go to college. I flip flopped multiple times on what I thought I’d be: A photographer for National Geographic, an ambassador, a public relations specialist, and the list goes on. All lofty goals, yes. But were they for me? I doubt it.
I started off working at a daycare, putting little ones to sleep and changing diapers. Some might say they were humble beginnings. Through working there, I met someone who just so happened to be the executive assistant to my current bosses. Through a series of conversations, I ended up interning at the company and later on, I was hired. That was over 6 years ago and I’m amazed when I look back.
God took a teenager at a daycare, who had entrusted her life to Him, and He brought her to an amazing company she didn’t even know existed. I never interviewed and I never submitted a resume. Now, I’m a product manager for the very same company. But you see, it’s not because of “how great I am” or because “I’m smart”. It’s because years ago I said, “Lord, use me however You see fit.”
As I’ve climbed the corporate ladder, sometimes it’s easy to think it’s because of what I did. Yes, I’ve worked hard to be at this place in my life. But had I not trusted God to order my steps, I can confidently say I wouldn’t be where I am today.
Sometimes it takes moments of crisis – moments of wondering where things are headed – to cause you to remember where you started. God has lovingly reminded me today in numerous ways, that the faith of a child is all I need. It’s the kind of faith that jumps off the stairs into her father’s arms, trusting he’ll catch her. It’s the kind of faith that believes for the best, no matter what. And it’s the kind of faith God requires of us.
In the moments of crazy, where my head and my world is spinning, it’s easy to get caught up in the crisis and forget to fix my eyes on Jesus. Of all the people in my life who have let me down and disappointed me, He never has. He’s never accused me, never lied to me, and never left me.
Of everyone in my life, He is the one I can, should, and will trust. I love Him because He first loved me. Despite my flaws and sometimes egocentric self – He loved me and continues to love me even when I think I’m not worth loving.
That’s the kind of love I can trust. And that’s where I can confidently place my faith, even when the future seems unknown.